I think I'm still finding my way back to the ground after the high of this Beltane. The words to describe it haven't crystallized because I'm still transfixed by the perfection of the swirling whole.
Because of that I hope you will forgive the inadequacies of this meager post. I want to say so much but the first thing I have to say is this...
Thank You!!!
I feel so much gratitude. Thankfulness for the people who made this event possible.
The founder who created it. This year she taught me that true leadership is knowing when to step back and let yourself enjoy what you created.
The spiritual fire tender who let herself shine so that I could find myself in her practice. This year she taught me that compliments can cut someone open as much as pain can.
The teachers who shared their wisdom. This year they taught me a soft voice can lead more powerfully than a shout. That pleasure comes to spaces where you nurture it. And that nature can teach you what it feels like to be human.
The steady hands that build the playground so that the rest of us can revel.
The ritual leaders who conjured a circus for us to run way with.
The vendors who shared coffee for my body and tarot wisdom for my soul.
The people I never spoke to but always noticed.
And most of all, thank you to everyone who helped me embody and share abundant joyful sexuality to celebrate Beltane.
To the new and established members of my free range consensual harem, you were the loves of my life this week. You held me and tied me down. You built me up and brought me to my knees. You hypnotized me, pleasured me, bewitched me and taught me. Even if we didn't interact much, I cherished you because you were mine. I always noticed when you were near.
To the people who attended my workshop and witnessed my ritual by the fire Friday night. Thank you for seeing me. Thank you for giving me a chance to be bigger than I thought possible. Thank you for being patient with me when I stumbled.
I've written many times about how important this event has been to my spiritual development. Being able to be a bigger part of it this year was an honor and a privilege.
You all helped me build the heat and power of Beltane in me so that I could shine it back at you. May you take the fire we made together this Beltane and use it to light something inside of you that's been waiting for your passion to come to life.
XOXOX
Tonic
For members of my harem, here are some of the photos taken at Beltane that it gives me great pleasure to share with you.
